Tuesday, April 22, 2014

F*cking Problem


No get nutz guys. Just feeling my way around premier pro to try to do something about the fact that I know diddly squat about how to really use it. #music video #selfie #kendricklamar #drake #fuckingproblem

Monday, April 21, 2014

Goody Two Shoes


And so I've realized... I am a good girl that just likes to play bad. A good girl that can't actually bring herself to be bad. My crazy ass father raised a crazy ass, ambitious goody-two-shoes out of a girl born with a fierce, natural rebelliousness. Oh my (confusing, contradictory) heart, mind, body, and soul~ #selfie

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Suffering.

I get pain, depression, and mental anguish. I know suffering. I understand it. I've dealt with it my whole life. I know you have too. This is precisely why I want to be involved in Pop music and comedy. We NEED light and love, singing, dancing, and laughing. It's so easy to fall into focusing in on all the bad. But man, that is no way to spend what little time we have on this earth.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Pixelated Heart

(Now playing---->)
I produced, wrote, and recorded this all in one day. Like, the day before yesterday. I had zero food that day, and after I was done, a few cigs, and one Four Loko. Welp. That entire night was spent puking my heart and guts out, with this playing in the background as my soundtrack. Yep... But my sister says she likes it and it's really catchy. Therefore, it must actually be good. :D #letitout #whenidoitidoitbig

Not All Bad

Y'know, despite how much I talk or joke about being narcissistic, selfish, and egocentric, I am NEVER one to lie to, betray, or step on another to get ahead. Even if you betray me, I will not reciprocate. I may not be the most patient or understanding person, nor the most sensitive or tactful, but I can at least hold to my #honesty and #integrity. #notallbad

Thursday, April 10, 2014

so ugly on the inside

If I have ever hurt you with anything I carelessly or 
deliberately said or done, I'm so, so, so incredibly sorry.

Please know I want so badly to change and I'm really trying.

For some reason, it's tremendously difficult
for me to consistently uphold the change.

But I'm trying. I really am.

I'm Sorry.

I don't want to be a judgmental, intolerant jerk. I want to be kind, compassionate, and understanding. My sister is right; I need to focus more on becoming a better human being, instead of only focusing on becoming a better artist. I'm sorry.